They say in life everything happens for a reason, and if you had asked me a week ago, I would have said I see no sense in all the hurt and sadness I was feeling. But today, I see it and it all makes sense!
I lost my best friend. That I have spoken about here. I also ended up in major conflict with another close friend and was hurt beyond belief. At the beginning of this week I thought my world was caving in! But then, through a random series of events, I ended up talking to, receiving messages from, and spending time with a whole bunch of new, old and different friends. The message I got from all of these conversations was that I was cared about, and still had AMAZING friends! I felt a huge sense of relief because it wasn't every friend who thought I was a terrible person...just 2.
I had a chance to feel loved, and I got to talk to friends and gain new perspectives on this journey I am on.
I also spent time working on the friendship aspect of my marriage too. I have heard people say that you marry your best friend... I wouldn't say that was true in my case, but that was because I put so much sacred emphasis on my best friendship! I love my husband and we do have a great friendship but it was not comparable to my BEST friend. I realized this week though, we have grow our friendship a lot over the past year and particularly six months as things have fallen apart with my BFF. He has become my rock and sounding board and friend! It just took me time to see the change.
Last night I had coffee with my high school best friend and blogging inspiration. It made my heart so happy and gave me so much hope for the road ahead. She showed me what strength is! I am looking forward to spending more time together! Driving home I felt like I did when I was in high school. :)
This weekend is my birthday weekend, I turn 34 next week! I have lots of things to do (including report cards - boo) and I am looking forward to enjoying my time. It sucks that I will be missing two of my friends, but I am focusing on the ones around me! Who knows ... This may be the last birthday I will celebrate without a mom card to open! ;)
Happy Saturday Friends!
Xo c
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