Ever feel like the world isn't giving you what you want? Ever feel like the people you love the most hate you?

That is where I am at today! I should preface this by pointing out I am easily hurt by others because I tend to take everything to heart. It's a weakness that I can't overcome.

I am also not stupid. I know if you have problems in all your best friendships then you must be the problem! I am not in conflict with all my closest friends - I wouldn't even say I am in conflict - just cut out and kicked out of another persons life whom I considered to be one of my best friends. That is two this week! I guess I am on a roll.

Don't misunderstand this pity party! I am sure I am at fault! But neither of these people are talking to me! So I can't solve the problems which I assure you I did not deliberately create!

So here I am on a lonely Sunday morning wondering what is so flawed about me that my best friends see fit to abandon me without the opportunity to talk or fight it out. I am so upset and so hurt and am starting to get angry. That's never good!

How do you let go?
How do you take all the emotional stuff that I am going through (now without my longstanding support network) and find the strength to deal with the loss of friendships?
How do I get through a single day without tears?
Today I need my mom, but she is in heaven. Although she may be with me always - I need her here to help me. NOW! I hate this feeling.

How do I not just quit life?