So this week began with a hystersonogram-a test where they filled my uterus with saline and took pictures of the inside. It's humiliating but the good news is I have a perfectly shaped uterus! I am so proud I am making a t-shirt that says, "I may not be perfect but my uterus is!" :)
Otherwise it was another pretty negative appointment - one ovary, ovulated early...blah blah blah.
The funny part was that my husband almost got jumped on the way into the clinic because he had an extra large double-double and the TTC (trying to conceive) women are in serious withdrawal! He also freaked out a little when he saw pages of pictures of triplets...doubles were scary but triples almost sent him running.
In short after being violated by the "magic wand" (internal ultrasound stick)...If you are lucky enough to have never had one, I will try to post a pic for you Thursday...it's about ten to twelve inches long....good times! I am thinking of naming the one at the clinic...maybe Randy. No! I had a teacher in high school named Randy - that's a little offside. Maybe Richard. It sounds dignified but still kind of funny! Yea, we'll call him Richard! He is rough. And not in the fun 50 shades way!
Anyhow I digress.
I had a "reaction" to the test- excruciating uterus pain - try explaining that one to your husband!!! And so Monday's visit with Richard was painful as hell! Then I was part of new technician training and the lady pointed out a million problems! I wanted to yell, "BUT IT'S THE PERFECT SHAPE!!!"but I didn't have the nerve.
After that visit I cried all the way to school! Great start to my week! By the end of the day I had lost my new job and will be forced to stay in the dungeon of a school I work in now. It's not that I can pinpoint a cause for the negativity but it is like a plague there and despite having the most amazing friends there I can't imagine growing a human well under all that stress! So I cried all the way home, then a bit more and then I napped, cried to my husband and then watched the Bachelorette. Now I am fine.
I have another appointment Thursday. Another date with Richard. All so we can find out why we can't grow a baby and how to solve the problem. We know my hubby's half ... Now there is a whole different story...but we are investigating mine. Its scary as hell!! But hopefully worth it!
Oh wait there is another story I forgot to tell!
For a wedding gift my dad bought us an ac unit that my then-best-friend was going to have her then-boyfriend install (they are engaged now). It took him until October to install it and then he didn't even finish the job. Last week when asked to come finish it, he refused!! I think my former best friend hates me ...but I have no idea why! So we've been in eleventy-billion degree heat without ac!! Try having a migraine in that kind of heat! It's been bad. So today my hubby was off - lets give him a name too - we will call him D! So D spent the last 7 or so hours doing the "5 minute job" this ex friend's fiancé told him it would be. But we FINALLY HAVE AC!! I am doing cartwheels in my mind! This is the first good thing I happen this week and I am so grateful!
That will be all for now! I am going to go eat my feelings...I think this shitty week needs some ice cream!
Xc
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